Graduation!!!

I hate how I always begin my blog with an apology about not writing for a while, but that won't end until I become a faithful blogger....

Many things have happened since I last blogged. So I'll give a bulleted list.

• My drama class team went to state, and won, big time, if there was a placement system, we would have taken first. Also, every I.E. piece that we took to state took overall, or straight superiors. High-five to Mrs. Thames for doing that her first year teaching.
• As I mentioned, I had the lead role in my school's spring play, and it was the most fun role in my life. To those of you who missed it, that's okay. If you're just DYING to see it, I have a DVD of the performance, but... please, don't feel like you have to see it, it's over, and I'm moving on in my life. But it was probably the most rewarding acting experience of my life.
• Stage technology class was so much fun! I learned so much, and grew to appreciate the people who work behind the scenes to make me look good in the spotlight.
• Even more important & permanent in my life, my sister had a baby, and he is the CUTEST little boy I have ever seen! I love that they live in the Valley, so that they can come over often, so that I can see my perfect little nephew.
• I got a new cell phone. I am pretty excited about it, it has a camera, so I can take pictures of my perfect little nephew.
• I enjoyed my last trimester of high school, all of my teachers were really understanding, and accommodating with my busy schedule as the lead.
• I graduated high school, a big step, or so I'm told. So now I'm on to bigger and better things...
• I still need a job, so if anyone knows somewhere that is hiring seasonal positions, please, please, email me an application, or a link to an application.
• I dispelled my "cabin fever" by going to the cabin the day after graduation. I took my part-time-brother, Stu, with me to fix the pipes that burst last fall, and I had a blast showing him the beauty of that landscape. There is nothing so satisfying as when you ascend the mountain and see the pure landscape.

I'm sure there was more than that, but I don't have more time, so I will end here

I remain evermore, penningjade

-Crystal Jade

End of school

it has not hit me yet that i will not be going back to the classes that have tortured me for the past few weeks. i have not yet fully realized that i won't see many of my close acquaintances ever again. they will all move on and become "real" people. with lives and jobs... AHHHH! that's me in a year.

here is reality: i am now a senior! i have turned in my check out slip, and all grades are final. my Junior year of high school is OVER! I'm half dancing, and half crying. you know me, i don't do endings! i cry at the end of every movie, simply because it's over, don't believe me? that's because i hide it so well.

it is a wonder to me that the friends i have now won't be my friends in 30 years, my mom certainly doesn't see many of her high school friends any more. is this what it comes to.... i put all this effort into friendships, and in even so much as 2 years the people i love will have forgotten me. that's not fair. i sincerely love Nick, Nicole, Nicholas, Annie, and many of the others. i don't want to lose them. that doesn't make sense. but hopefully the technologies that my generation has hold of, we'll stay in touch at the touch of a few buttons. that seems better to me. i hope it is the reality.

i realize now that there are more cute guys at my school than i could find in a school out of state. but i don't give a fetch what a guy looks like. yeah, it's nice to have all his parts there, nose, eyes, etc. but that isn't what matters. it's what he says and does that matters. i am constantly commenting to my friends, "oooOh, that boy is cute" or "man that boy is a hottie" some of my friends only know that shallow side of me (sorry for them) but i don't think that way, and the boys who i comment on their looks are usually the guys i avoid talking to... not because they're awful people, just because i suffer from chronic shyness (you wouldn't guess that, but i'm even shy around my own family sometimes) but there are some boys who have looks and personality, and it is wonderful to be their friends, and that is totally what you want, but it would be nice if they were... well... okay more than a friend. that's where i'm at right now. i value his friendship as more than all the gold in the universe, and i care for him immensely, but i don't know what he thinks of me. Ugh i always do this to my self! new rule: "Crystal isn't allowed to try to gauge how people feel about her, because she'll always judge that they think she's a freak that they're forced out of civility to spend time with." all who agree with this rule say "aye" t

hat's what i thought...


moving on:

my summer starts, and i'll be out of town for the first 5-6 weeks. but that's okay, because i have the last few to relax while i try to find a job for the school year. (i'm hoping that i'll get one in this place by my house... i hope they have an opening at the end of the summer)

if you have my number, don't hesitate to text me. i love talking to people. it's sorta my thing that i do. and if you don't have my number then i feel sorry for you, unless you're a stranger... in which case... i'm sorry, but that's not where i talk to strangers.

wow. this is my last post for a while. (on penningjade) and i hope every one will have a great time this summer, even if your routine doesn't change. just live life, laugh at your own mistakes, and love the people you surround yourself with.

New Trimester

ugh! i hate endings! i miss my creative writing class most of all, but i love the freedom i have now that i have 2 online courses, because on days where i have nothing to do, i can just sit at the computer and write... I've gotten some fun stuff written...

i love my friends though. and life is pretty fantastic. i have friends in every class to talk to, but there are these annoying guys who sit behind me in one of my classes that are always saying "calm down" even when i am not being keyed up... it sort of bothers me, but i always laugh because when they swear, i tell them to calm down and they get a taste of their own medicine. ha ha!

I'm trying to start exercising again. it is sort of fun, I've taken to riding the stationary bicycle in the basement for half an hour at a time, it is really sweet. i love feeling the burn without feeling the fire in my lungs, because i can still breathe when i ride, where i can't when i run...

i'm missing the stage right now, but i'm satisfying myself by singing almost constantly, so i torture my loved twin sister wit that ha ha! but she loves me anyhow, doesn't she...

well, i think i'll write more later this week, but i'm done for now... so that's all for now, and:

have a fantastic day!

-crystal Jade

End of the Trimester.

I already know my major downfall as a writer, I hate writing "The End" or finishing off my story in any way. I always feel that I can do more if given more time, so with writing, I take more time (and more time, and more time, and more time....) but with my education, I cannot choose how much time I take. If it were up to me, i would get to spend all my life continuing my education, but I will need to move on from high school for good eventually. (Unless I do what Arti is doing which is exactly what i want to do)

Well, this concept of me hating ends comes up even more apparently when the term in school ends.

Last Thursday concluded the first trimester of my Junior year in high school. It seems like a sweet thing, I am done with math for the year, and I get to relax from acting for a little while, but it's still hard. The two classes that were driving me berserk are the two classes I'm most sorry to leave.
Another class I'm sorry to leave is my seminary class. the group was a ton of fun, and our teacher was the best I've had. (I tend to think that about every seminary teacher). But the group was really exceptional. The boys were some of the cutest seminary boys ever, and everyone was so nice to me. I'm gonna miss them, but I have seminary again next trimester, so I hope I will get the chance to love a whole new group of my peers.

Twilight came out over the weekend, and I was really excted to see it, but my mom says we're going to see it over the Thanksgiving break as a family (I'll try to hold her to that.)

Snowdrifts, though I'm finished with the third draft, is still too much bones, and not enough meat, so I'm going head into the fourth draft, in hopes that I will finish by the end of the year, there are only a few things I need to change, because it's generally pretty good. I just need to print myself a copy, and figure out what it is that is bugging me so emmensely (there's just something that I can't stand about the first two chapters) there is also some loose ends that I left untied, nd some character development that justifies my kindness to a character, and makes the story make more sense to the reader. But I hope to have a nicely bound copy on my bookshelf by my birthday (that is a plan I am working for)


Life is good. I got a decent GPA last trimester, and I have quite a few classes that i'm excited to start tomorrow.

I just want to say thanks to a few people, I'll just mention their names.

Mom, Yaz, Nicie, Annie, Mrs. Atkinson, Megan, Brooke, Kim, Michie, Chel, Cory, Stu, Remi.... that should cover it for now. Thanks to all who are there for me, whether i mentioned your name or not. You are a great blessing in my life.

-Crystal Jade